I am having to take a step back from the adoption stuff today. I learned yesterday that several of our supporting documents have not arrived in Moscow, and so they obviously have not been translated yet. The circumstances couldn't be helped as to why they are not there... it was completely beyond our agency's control. So, our dossier has not arrived at the MOE yet. Consequently we are not registered yet. This is disheartening, as we know there are two children waiting for us. Well, and not really our children....because I suppose the official referral must come from the MOE. Since everyone thought the paperwork would have been in this week...and they had children in mind, we were on a fast track to travel. I'm not sure what is going to happen now. I am reminded of Becky's post in what seems like ages ago, when she wrote about the super fast train leaving the station, but they were not on that train. I can relate to that......

I'm learning a lesson...until you get travel dates and official information.... don't plan. Don't even try to plan. As usual my old stand by line is with international adoption... you never know... until you know. And quite frankly sometimes it just stinks.

On top of that we are still dealing with our old agency and trying to get our dossier withdrawn from the region... and back to us. We were given the steps to take by our former agency rep. and now the head of the agency has emailed Chris and said they will not give translated dossier's back. He said that they have invested a lot of money to have them translated and they do not return them. Chris wanted to email back, (but he didn't) that it was our money that paid for that translation and it's our dossier. So, that continues to be a headache.

Sorry this post is so melancholy. It just gets a little hard planning and trying to work around everyone's schedules etc etc etc. It's just well..... tiring. I'm going to take a little break from here until we hear some news on our official registration and I guess official referrals. No, they are not officially our referrals yet and yes, I do believe we can lose them.

I am trying hard to remind myself that God is in control of all these things. I know He is...even the details as to why our dossier is being held up. I know He has a plan, and I need to just rest in that assurance. I guess it's times like this where I need to remember my faith and try less to "understand". And I guess I better add in my sidebar, another favorite verse that speaks to my heart today. "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1